asalamu alaikum.

whoa days. whoa days. i  really needa start sleeping earlier.

this one has an old preacher man telling his story. starts of SLOw, but picks up quick. not very entertaining, but has a few good points.

http://lightuponlight.com/islam/modules.php?name=Stream2&file=index&lid=412&num=0

This one is a man who is lecturing a BIG GROUP of youth about being muslim. He's lecturing around 12 midnight so hes tired, but has alot of energy after 5 min of re couping.

http://lightuponlight.com/islam/modules.php?name=Stream2&file=index&lid=65&num=0

this one is a red neck telling his story, hes hiliarious.

http://lightuponlight.com/islam/modules.php?name=Stream2&file=index&lid=422&num=0

this one is siraj wihaj.  starts off slow as well, be patient.

http://lightuponlight.com/islam/modules.php?name=Stream2&file=index&lid=298&num=0

so they all start off slow, and a patient learner would be good in this situation. sorry for being bossy.

VOCABULARY you might hear:

ALLAH: God

Asalamu alaikum: peace be with you

Dunya or duniya: this world, sometimes refers to the material things of this world

Sala lahu alaywasalam: peace and blessings be upon him (youl hear this every single time they mention Muhammad (pbuh)

InshaAllah: If God wills it

MashaAllah: God let it be

SubhanAllah: Glory be to God

Allahu akbar: God is the greatest

Ummah: muslim nation

Salat/ Salah: prayer

DEEN: RELIGION

most of the time u will here a long saying in Arabic in the beginning. this is called the opening supplication. just bear with it.

lastly, the videos are recorded by adolescents, so dont be surprised if  u see weird effects. its just the kids playing around with the files.

may God give u guidance bro.

wow Eid Mubarak.

mang do i look tired. this is so bad.

i dont get enough sleep which is my fault. i should sleep after isha and not pray isha at 1 am. thats so yucky. doesnt happen often, but once in a while i get consecutive nights where i pray isha around 1 mostly cus i got the same thing on my  mind for those nights. worries worries.

but anyways im so wasting time. asalamu alaikum wb.

the whole of the matter is...

I don't , we don't have enough Tawakkal.

Everyone goes through this stage of THOUGHT. I'm no special case...and you probably aren't either. But when you think about it, you are, I am.  These are days when I sit for long moments pondering after prayer.  After 2 rakat sunnah before Asr, I sit until I realize, crap it's almost time for maghrib. During this moment, my mind races. "Why did I do that yesterday?" "Ya Rabb please keep me within my boundaries." Thought after thought....to the point where I'm so exhausted, when I stand up for Asr, the room spins.  On top of that, the world is already spinning and I just want to go away and open up a bakery and bake breads and sweets for the rest of my life.

Asalamu alaikum wb.